you know i love you right?

I never stopped  loving you.
I know,
I KNOW you don't believe that.
You've made that clear to me.
But at least I know in my heart,
for myself,
the truth.
I tried to move on and I never did.
I still love you more than myself,
more than being happy,
more than anyone else,
more than my future,
more than my family,
more than,
more than, etc, etc, etc.

Why do you think I'm in so much pain?
Because I feel bad?
Somewhat,
Because you're everything to me? Yes!!
You fill me with love and support and encourage me to do good things.
You make me a better person,
a better everything.
Better.
Life is better when you're in it.
Through everything
-e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.- you were always on my mind.
You matter to me.
I can't take you or leave you.

I collapse without you.
Not because I NEED you.
I am fine on my own.
I have my independence.
I am an individual very delved in the self.
I know who I am, though I have struggled long and hard to know what I want.
I can stand alone just fine.
Well, before I met you that is.
Its that I'm fine being alone-but I'm not fine being away from you.
If that makes sense. 
When you're there that is. That's what love does to you I guess?
I don't know anything so I can't really say. I just love you.

And being without you is hard.
Being alone isn't though.
I've got plenty to do, plenty to keep me occupied.
I don't need relationships,
I don't need reassurance,
I don't need
I love.
I love you. 
I love being with you.
I love your nose.
I love your hugs.
I love listening to music with you.
I love listening to songs that remind me of you.
I love how you look at me when you're worried about me.
I love that we love the same music.
I love that you've always been there