乱哈拉 ORZ.

脾气暴躁，乱哈拉  就是最近的我。


我的嘴角才会往上扬？


唉～


工作也没有什么怎么忙，算得上轻松。


可是，我对人际关系的看法就很差。

那里的人，像是每个都带着面具。


叫人心一阵寒

姓马的，我觉得很大惊小怪


他们说什么信仰？很严


其实， 根本这是屁话!

他们的言语  举动


陡然我怕死！去你们的！


但没有关系。


这是所谓的 “马社会”


烂！


可悲又可恶！>,<





最近迷上了  BLUE BERRY BOLD 9000

喜欢上好一阵子了啦！ ><

♥

WHO WANNA BUY ME ONE? :)


别再问我的成绩了啦。

过了就算！ 我是很接受事实的

要怎么说？随吧。

ALOHAAA. :)

习惯就好


社会是多么的黑暗！


像生病样的～ ORZ.

头发长啦～

赫赫～ ^^

显得我很肥～ @@

><

我的工作伙伴

ANUAR as SUPERVISOR 

SUSAN as STAFF

 （恐怖女人 一个～ ><）

还有一个是不是很想李宗伟？

哈哈！ 他不是李宗伟。

是我的PRINCIPLE. >BOSS.

JOSHUA LEE as BANQUET MANAGER. :)

(高版的李宗伟) XD

我还是加油,

我上班下班的日子吧！

阴暗而沉闷

天冷、阴暗、沉闷；

下着雨，风也刮个不停；
   

藤还攀附着颓垣残壁，
   

每来一阵风，枯叶坠落纷纷，
  

天真是阴暗而沉闷。

我的生活寒冷、阴郁、沉闷；
   

下着雨，风也刮个不停；
   

我的思想还纠缠着消逝的往事，
   

大风里，我的青春希望相继熄灭，
  

天真是阴暗而沉闷。

安静吧，忧伤的心！别再悔恨； 

乌云后面太阳依然辉煌灿烂；
 

我的命运和大家的一样， 

每个人一生都得逢上阴雨， 

有些日子必然阴暗而沉闷。

桃花- - 关了

记


生怕自己会忘记


于是—


强迫自己去记忆


时光随风飞逝


只剩下—


残留的痕迹 




静静的眼神 




轻轻的话语 


淡淡的温馨




萦绕在脑际


埋葬的记忆






发狂的回忆


翻找当年的日记


偶然一张照片


让我兴奋不已


泻出的雨滴 




讶然发现 




此时的笑容苍白无力 




追忆


曾经的欣喜 




一切都是追寻 




一切都会过去 








瞬息的记忆


残留的痕迹 








记得巧克力，记得你，记得我。


记得我们。


我的不开心


都要吃进肚子。

我的小小作品

最近工作都很闷


无聊 无所事事


欺负？


无聊


我的小作品




谁会欣赏？


不晓得。


谁要批评？


大胆的说。


我接受。


谢谢。我感激不尽。:)

也为日本，中国，英国各区的有天灾的地区


默默祈祷


但愿世界和平




最近的心情


糟透了。




;(

自我意识

凡是意识到自我的人从今往后才是独立的；

永远不知疲倦, 明白生命苦短，

所以完全沉浸于深深的而又适度的幸福之中。

独立生活，而别人是繁文缛节的奴隶,

在醉生梦死之中听从生命悄然流逝。

一旦循规蹈矩，一旦人为亦为，

呆滞就笼罩着灵魂中一切灵敏的神经和官能。

灵魂变得徒有其表，

其中空空；迟钝，木然、冷漠。

MY WAY.

THE SUN BEING SO COOL.
THE WIND BEING TOO WARM.
IT'S MY WAY.
WITHOUT YOU BESIDE ME.


IT'S MY WAY.
LIKE WHAT I HAVE SAID.

I AM JUST USED TO SAYING.
NOT TO TELLING.

I AM JUST USED TO WATCHING.
NOT TO SEEING.

TAKE A CHANCE.
MAKE A CHANCE.

GO AHEAD.

KEEP MOVING ON.

SO MANY HAVE GONE FAR.
SO MANY HAVE FORGOTTEN.

I ONLY CHOOSE TO REMEMBER YOU.
WHO GIVE ME TO NO-BETTER CARE
I ONLY SING TO YOU

WHO MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN ME
WHO MAY NOT REALLY KNOW ME

I CAN'T HELP MISSING YOU

WHO I OFTEN DREAM IN A DREAM
WHO I OFTEN SEE IN A DISTANCE

TIMELESS SILENCE
RESTLESS THOUGHT

INCLUDING YOU AND ME

IN THE REALLY SMALL WORLD.
 

TODAY IS WHAT I HAVE.

Remember today that I alive.

Sometimes I tend to forget that I have a purpose that is all my own, 
no one else is myself. 

I have dreams and hopes and desires. Listen to my heart for a while.

Remember today all the blessings I have: 

There's beauty in every direction I look, 
enjoy the abundance that is already mine, 
the world is a wonderful place and I'm here.

Remember today that I get what I give: 

My world is a mirror of my inner self, 
love will be mine when I give it away.

Remember today that life is creation: 

As long as I live I can always contribute my own special voice.

NEVER DOUBT YOURSELF

Darkness give me black eyes and I use them to 

hunt brightness.

Room isn't built in one day.

Never doubt yourself.

Nothing is impossible.

Tomorrow is another day.

I proposes, god disposes.

The only limit to our realization of tomorrow 

will be our doubts of today.

THE RAINING DAY.

DAY IS COLD AND DARK AND DREARY,
IT RAINS AND THE WIND IS NEVER WEARY.
THE VINES STILL CLINGS TO THE MOLDERING WALL,
BUT AY EVERY GUST THE DEAD LEAVES FALL.



MY LIKE IS COLD AND DARK AND DREARY,
IT RAINS AND THE WIND IS NEVER WEARY,
MY TOUGHT STILL CLING TO THE MOLDERING PAST.
MY HOPES OF YOUTH FALL THICK IN THE BLAST.




BE STILL SAD HEART AND CEASE REPINING.
BEHIND THE CLOUDS IS THE SUN-TILL SHINING.
THY FATE IS THE COMMON FATE OF ALL,
INTO EACH LIFE SOME RAIN MUST FALL.
SOME DAYS MUST BE DARK AND DREARY. 






;)

THERE ARE A BIGG DIFFERENT. :)

today i suppose to work at 9am. but since my lovely ah pa 
woke up late jo. so, i also been late.
walau. the first day work at another part jiao late jo. 
apela gue nie. = =' but nevermind la. aha! :)
the boss sure will faint if hire a worker like me!
always so EARLY wake up. 
muahahaha! xD
firstly when i go there. macam la biase. 
change my cloth and all stuff. then go to the 3rd floor to search 
BANQUET. i stand there and wait the JOSHUA
to pick me up. LOL. baby mie.?
babi got la. = =' then stand awhile nia got stuff bring me go to the 
center ball room.there got function todayy. 
the prime minister wife coming LOL. 

>WHAT SO BIG HUH?

nothing special also. stand there for whole morning also din't serve 
anything to the guess. = ='
mane taw the BIG BOOM come late so everything been delay. 

>IT'S TOO BIGG!  XD

laaa. lunch time when serve the all SMALL boom like shit nia.
one person must take care of two table that having 10 people 
on that lunch table.
when i serve the first table the other table asked me to serve pulakk. 
x kan i got 4leg and 4 hand?

AKAK! U NIE ADE PAKAI OTAK KE X NI? >,<

and i realise something. why when people saw me will talk to me 
in malay?
and keep asking me ARE YOU CHINESE?
heyy! you buta ke nie? or colour blink? 
i think i should answer them i am INDIAN! LMAO. 
want or not? laaa. izit am i really LOOK LIKE A MALAY GIRL? 

WTF

and working at banquet is more fun than working at dining room loh.
why? because. at dining room what you also have to be fast. you know. 
like after guess ate finish. you have to clean it all up with your limit speed. 
but in banquets  is other story. we can just stand there. 
all motion are slow slow geh.no people hurry you. no people scold you. 
a peaceful place and silent. after the break fast then we started to keep la. 
then i was wonder why they so happy when that movement coming.
IT'S BECAUSE THEY CAN EATTTT! 
walau. now only i know, they will eat the food 
that never been touch or finish! all like 'ngo guai'
keep eating behind. = =' so fun and funny. 
i keep laughing and laughing like orang siao. > <


but tomorrow i will move to business center.
got to say bye to them. but. 
the manager said; once banquet not enough stuff i will be there for help. 
yeahh!
before i move to business center. got kakak tell me la. 
work with me the malay girl will bully people geh.
wth man! if she will. i will give her one bigg slap! 
today already i know it. i wore more than 2ear ring also
ngam nagm charm charm at there jor. 
> < izit she don't have then jealous? whatever shit she like la. iuu.
once i get into busines center i like go back to school life.
need to study, memorise,compare,checking. all those stuff la.
hope i will enjoy with this job la. aduix.

 short and fat weyy.




nah. this is SUPER MALAY GIRL! > <
now is 11.13pm.

IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GET OFF MY 

ASS FROM COMPUTER AND GET 

TO MY BED NOW.

HOLA. night world. :)

♥

JUST A LITTLE CARE.

THIS IS WHAT FOR YOU. THE ONLY.

JUST A LITTLE CARE BETWEEN YOU AND ME.

YOU ARE A SCAR IN MY HEART, I ALWAYS WANT TO TOUCH,

BUT IT'S PAINING.

IT'S sO FAR AWAY FROM ONE HEART TO THE OTHER.

I TOLD MYSELF: DON'T FEEL SAD, IT WILL GO AWAY.

DON'T THINK ABOUT THINGS THAT YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO.

AS LONG AS YOU HAPPY, EVERYTHING WILL BE OK.

I HAVE MY OWEN LOVE AFTER ALL. 

I WANT TO CLOSE MY EYES,CLOSE MY HEART,LOSE DIARY, 

LOSE MEMORY,I AM ON MY WAY TO FUTURE WITHOUT YOU.

ALTHOUGH A LITTLE LONELY, A LITTLE SORE,

A BIT AT A LOSS.

I WAS MESSED UP FOR ALONG TIME.

REACHING OUT OF SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER MAKE ME HAPPY.

INCREDIBLE I AM TROWING HAPPINESS WITH BOTH HAND.

I DON'T KNOW IF YOU KNOWS ME BUT I WISH YOU KNOW.

I WISH.

:'(

THE HIGH HOPES. HEBAT YEAA. :)

ERMM. I WILL BACK TO ZENITH HOTEL TO WORK AGAIN SOON!

SHIT! BUT, THIS TIME I WON'T BACK DO DINING ROOM AGAIN. 

DON'T WANT TO SAW BACK THE TWO ANNOYING CAPTAIN!

EUUU! HATE SO MUCH!! >,<

I DON'T KNOW I WORK BACK THERE IS A CORRECT DECISION 

OR NOT? 

SO HERE IS A FUNNY THINGS.

WHEN I DID NOT WORK, I FELT BORED.

BUT  WHEN I WORK I FELT BORED ALSO AND REGRET.

SOWHATHEHELL IS THIS?

AND NOW, I  WILL WORK AT BANQUET PART, AT BUSINESS STATE GEH.

AT BALL ROOM THERE. AND MY WORK IS JUST TYPE COMPUTERS 

AND CHECKING AROUND. BUT I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW IS THAT.

TUESDAY WILL WORK AT THERE TRY A DAYS FIRST. HMM. :)

HOPE THAT WILL BE ANOTHER GREAT JOB. 

AND CAN I ASK: I DON'T WANT TO WORK OVER TIME CAN?

TEHEE ;D

OBVIOUSLY, I DON'T KNOW THE SALARY THAT I WILL GET 

WHEN I WORK THERE. LOL.

BUT JUST LET ME WORK 8HOUR PER DAY. THAT'S ENOUGH. AHA! :)

AND WHEN I READ YESTERDAY NEW STRAITS TIMES NEWSPAPER. 

I SAW. "HIGH HOPE FOR E-LEANING".

OH YEAHH! THIS IS WHAT I MEAN. E-LEARNING. SCORE A PROGRAM.

HEBATT WEYY! 

MENTAKAB OFFICE WILL DEBUT SOON ON THIS WEDNESDAY.

SO. I CONGRATS TO ALL BONAFIDE TEAM MEMBERS. YEAH:) 

HAVE A GREAT DAY ON THAT DAY BRO. 

THIS IS WHAT I MEAN IT! 

THIS IS A GREAT JOB AND I AM TRYING HARD TO DO IT WELL. 

BUT YOU KNOW. KUANTAN PEOPLE LIKE UH-UH.

TALK ABOUT EARNING MONEY THEY HARHARHAR.

THEN, TALK ABOUT INVESTMENT THEY WILL SAID BYE-BYE.

WHATHEHELL. > <

I DON'T LIKE.
HEY, IF YOU WANT EARN MONEY YOU SHOULD PAY OUT  LA. 

ADUII. = ='

SO. UNTIL NOW YET I CAN'T FIND A PERSON TO JOIN THIS. AIKS.

KUANTAN PEOPLE. AIKSSS. ><

BUT, I WILL KEEP GOING LA. I WON'T GIVE UP SO EASILY. 

HOLA!! 

AND. CAN I STOP QUARREL ALREADY? I DON'T LIKE IT ANYWAY.

IS NOT I PURPOSE GO ARGUE WITH YOU.

PLEASE DON'T SO EMO CAN OR NOT? 

EVERYONE ALSO HARDSHIP. BUT WHY DON'T YOU POSITIVE THINKING?

I KNOW YOU STRESS. DEPRESS. SO WHAT?

JUST THE ONE YOU HAVE? NO.

EVERYONE GOT HERE.

BE TOUGH AND STRONG MY DEARR. 

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

AND. WE TOO! 

DID YOU KNOW THAT?

HOPE YOU WILL KNOW. 

IMMA HEART BREAKER.

BETTER WATCHOUT!  AHA! XD

扰乱的心情

近来我都有不知所措的心情,不只是为了什么。
发生了的事不是应该让我开心的吗？对，我是有一点兴奋，但是兴奋的来，
却又高兴不起来。orz。= =
老爸的哪一件事总算可以告一小小段落了，接下来会怎么样我也不知道。
但现在总算心安了就好。
还买香槟庆祝。我的天呀～还有虾吃？哈哈  不错的哟。

通过了啦。有一点小开心，但是又不怎么。
心情差差的时候，最好的疗伤法
睡觉
睡上一两天，心情就会好些。刚才也睡了整整十四个小时。
我的娘喂～还想继续的睡。
在我睡的当时，脑里便隐隐出现很多的画面，不断地在想起些什么。
我怀念那当时。轻松紧张又累的求学时期。
现在的生活很复杂，很繁忙却又充实。
我只想一个人简简单单平凡的过我想要的生活。
可是，我的生活总是有很多人来填满，一时真的让我不知所措。
我会害怕，会难过，会自卑。
我都很烦恼，不想要这样。

为什么有些人就是不懂得自爱？
认为花父母的钱就是天经地义的事？
那也很值得骄傲的吗？
对不起，我看不起！
你父母有钱是你父母的事，是你父母辛苦赚来的。
而不是你，请别在我面前炫耀你多有钱，用名牌，你要什么你父母就会给你。
我呸！朋友，那是一种没有出息的品行。
多少岁人了？不会想？ 读书成绩好又怎么样？就能鼻梁高过你的眼了吗？
就能随心所欲？ 做我的朋友？你不配。
噢！还有，谢谢你教会了我。会说反话的朋友。

；I GOT ENOUGH MONEY TO USE. BECAUSE MY PARENTS WILL GIVE ME. 

I JUST WILL SAY; I DON'T LIKE TO SAW YOUR SHIT FACE!

AND I KNOW THAT I AM SHORT. NOT NEED YOUR REMIND!THANK YOU.


最近都迷上了听听旧歌。反反复复地听了几遍。
我爱的旋律，歌词的含义都会不经的触动我心。
除了这，我还迷上了CHIRISTINA AGUILERA的歌。
从以前到现在都超爱，最近他拍了部电影--BURLESQUE
我更迷。 > <
唱的歌好好听。
-BOUND TO YOU
-SHOW ME HOE YOU
-EXPRESS


这部戏我看了三次。= ='' 傻了

 MOST INTRESTING PART.

; FAMOUS AMOS COOKIEESS. XD

也迷上的也大写字母
CAPITAL LETTER. LMAO
发觉自己都神经兮兮，有问题了。
我的爹呀～救救你的女儿吧.。

心血来潮画画
因为最近的生活都很无聊
唉呀哟～

AT THIS MOVEMENT, I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. AHA! :)

PLEASE DON'T DISTURB ME. THANK YOU.

好像漂浮了很久
自从那天你放开了手
应该是两个人来的港口
我一个人在许你温柔用你的目光看海
可乐冰痛了我的指头
幸福又快乐的地球人
不断从我的身边经过

对你还能怎么说 怎么做
做什么也都不够
插在口袋中 是没有人来握住的手
我的表情并不多 心也不痛
我只不过是不懂
世界在热闹什么
我在你看不到的天空
看着灿烂的烟火
这城市孤单的人只有我
没有谁在乎谁跟谁分手
每个时钟都继续转动
许下你听不到的承诺
流星怎么不坠落
在倒数声中我剩下什么
没有谁感性 对回忆爱不释手
但我无力对抗这整个世界的寂寞

我该如何去面对
整个世界的寂寞

烟的寂寞

香烟的味道,孤寂而空虚. 心沉沦在弥漫的烟雾中,看不到未来,看不到希望. 继续的沉沦,堕落下去.... 人生充满无奈与孤寂 轮回在寂寞中沉沦在空虚里. 慢慢轮回继续飘荡 寻找一个可以依靠的港湾来结束寂寞的轮回 。
香烟的味道,孤寂而空虚.
心沉沦在弥漫的烟雾中,看不到未来,看不到希望.
继续的沉沦,堕落下去。
人生充满无奈与孤寂
轮回在寂寞中沉沦在空虚里.
慢慢轮回继续飘荡
寻找一个可以依靠的港湾来结束寂寞的轮回
烟雾缭绕,环绕着心的冀望.
在无数轮回中,寻找,失望,寻迹,落寞.
一杯咖啡一支烟,孤寂落寞的感觉
回忆是美好的记忆是沉沦地.

游荡的灵魂
何去何从,当烟灭了的时候会明白心碎的感觉
香烟是寂寞的代表苦咖啡是空虚的节奏
当你离开的时候会明白心痛的感觉
夕阳咖啡烟
我的一切自由堕落落寞心结束